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Today is the first day I really, I mean really feel like going home. I cannot exactly describe those feelings, but one thing I can say: it sucks!

I don't know what it is, but people here are making me feel more lonely every day. The more days passin' by, the more I feel like missing the best part of my life...

I mean, I already gave up the hope for support on my work, either from my supervisor over here nor from my "supposed" german support. That kills even the little rest of motivation in me!

There are so many other things I'd like to leave behind, but they are always catching up with me again. Especially some persons that I really really miss...Cannot clear my head - I wish I could...


Hopefully this is just a temporarely feeling and gets away soon...
...need to write it down, otherwise it'll devours me! You have absolutely no idea how it is to have nobody arround yourself that you can trust and talk to how you used to do all the time!

...where the fuck is that delete button?