Monday, November 13th
Still in a strange mood. Trying to find a way to get motivated again. Hate that! If I only knew how to switch!?
Got up early to actually do some work in my dad’s company while he's on vacation. See some of our clients and fix some stuff, stuff like everytime...including that blah blah blah of his clients.
Decided to stay here and have another cup of coffee first. That old swiss piece of half-automatic coffee machine, trying to rip off my last hope of daily lethargy. Anyhow, forced a half-filled cup through and went to see my planner. Well, not much in there, still the same things to do.
Fortunately, the wireless connection of my neighbors still works and I still can use the internet for free. Hopefully they'll never find out!
Some chat here some websites there. Have another chat with Juuso, my flatmate from Singapore. Told me that he plans another trip to some country which name I can't even pronounce well.
Connection brakes suddenly-feeling helpless for a second, but decided to go and buy something, preferably milk, to have another cup of coffee. I guess it always makes me go out and buy something for just one reason-my body needs some real surrounding. Fresh air and some of the old dumb everyday-faces. Makes me smile for some weird reason. Guess it is part of my short-term self finding process at the moment.
Singapore popps into my mind. Miss it, but cannot really say what it is that I miss. I'm sure I could tell while I'm there the next time-but then it would be just the weather that it was to be missed.
And then Sweden. My thoughts fumble around the world. Is there a place where I could be happy at the moment? Or at least longer than just a year?
Come back home, stare at the screen. So it has to be done, I say to myself and start to type some application letter that I actually tried to write in June. How would I love it to just write an real letter to those dickheads in the recruitment departments. I mean just to write how it really is and how you really mean what you say. Not one of those hypocritic letters where you say how you adore their company and how indispensabel you are for them. Fuck that shit! But unfortunately this is the way things go, and will go on. So it comes that i tell 'em what nice erection I had when I first visted their website...
Finish one version. Feels like after one week nonstopp work at my dads company. pffff...need a coffee. Scanning more stuff and upload it as well. No answer from Sweden yet. That old cunt from the company may has a problem with Germans after those two embarrasing matches during Worldcup and after. Anyway, I won't be down 'coz of that.
Still no connection.
Open 'freecell' for another game against the computer. Win and finsh. Guess it's time to check the telly. Shit as expected. Force myself to go ahead with typing, but some higher power forces me back into this state...
Clean the apartment and chill more. Time for a nitey nite. Ohh, connected?! So I'm here...
...for some more...
Got up early to actually do some work in my dad’s company while he's on vacation. See some of our clients and fix some stuff, stuff like everytime...including that blah blah blah of his clients.
Decided to stay here and have another cup of coffee first. That old swiss piece of half-automatic coffee machine, trying to rip off my last hope of daily lethargy. Anyhow, forced a half-filled cup through and went to see my planner. Well, not much in there, still the same things to do.
Fortunately, the wireless connection of my neighbors still works and I still can use the internet for free. Hopefully they'll never find out!
Some chat here some websites there. Have another chat with Juuso, my flatmate from Singapore. Told me that he plans another trip to some country which name I can't even pronounce well.
Connection brakes suddenly-feeling helpless for a second, but decided to go and buy something, preferably milk, to have another cup of coffee. I guess it always makes me go out and buy something for just one reason-my body needs some real surrounding. Fresh air and some of the old dumb everyday-faces. Makes me smile for some weird reason. Guess it is part of my short-term self finding process at the moment.
Singapore popps into my mind. Miss it, but cannot really say what it is that I miss. I'm sure I could tell while I'm there the next time-but then it would be just the weather that it was to be missed.
And then Sweden. My thoughts fumble around the world. Is there a place where I could be happy at the moment? Or at least longer than just a year?
Come back home, stare at the screen. So it has to be done, I say to myself and start to type some application letter that I actually tried to write in June. How would I love it to just write an real letter to those dickheads in the recruitment departments. I mean just to write how it really is and how you really mean what you say. Not one of those hypocritic letters where you say how you adore their company and how indispensabel you are for them. Fuck that shit! But unfortunately this is the way things go, and will go on. So it comes that i tell 'em what nice erection I had when I first visted their website...
Finish one version. Feels like after one week nonstopp work at my dads company. pffff...need a coffee. Scanning more stuff and upload it as well. No answer from Sweden yet. That old cunt from the company may has a problem with Germans after those two embarrasing matches during Worldcup and after. Anyway, I won't be down 'coz of that.
Still no connection.
Open 'freecell' for another game against the computer. Win and finsh. Guess it's time to check the telly. Shit as expected. Force myself to go ahead with typing, but some higher power forces me back into this state...
Clean the apartment and chill more. Time for a nitey nite. Ohh, connected?! So I'm here...
...for some more...
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