Playing out on one card, but the heart-queen does not seem to be the best match

Actually, I am focusing all my actions onto the time I'm off to Sweden, having two interviews in several companies in a couple of days. But in somehow, my surrounding is trying hard to keep me away from my intension to just get leave this place. In that case, keeping a clear mind is quite a hard thing, you know. Some of you readers know the facts, some of you don't and I also don't want to post too hasty statements here.

mood: something between lethargic confusion and an atmosphere of departure

But for now, what to do? Send my brain off for vacation? Make a list with what I want in life, excluding potential interference for clear thoughts? Well, friends are one, but cannot be excluded at the same time. Should I follow my heart, likesay the female way? Or try to keep it a straight way? Hmmm, the straight way was actually a good match in the past, disregarding bad influences and shit-talking of socalled friends and haters.

See, a "straight" has even a higher value than "a pair of queens" though!