Well, a lot of things happened during the last few days. It is really hard to find the right words for an introduction.
So, just let me try to start…
There were, and of course there still are, those many different kind of feelings back these days. Good or bad? Well, it surely depends on the way you look at it – it’s just all relatively seen.
It sounds strange, but I already miss a lot of people who I spend just a little short moment of my life together with. But these people really made me feel home.
Even this little while was enough to see everything in a very different light. Sometimes it is just not more than the atmosphere that surrounds you, there are not many words to say or to do, and you just can feel it that it is so true – that is what makes you feel alive!
The guys leaving all one after another, every week a farewell party another part of your life is disappearing. Wouldn’t it sometimes just be easier to not make up so many new friends? I really don’t know!
I am writing this today, the 20th of February 2006, after the first guy left the house. It brings the first breeze of that strange feeling that will cover me for the next couple of weeks. Damn, I hate that so much!
Yeah…, so what more to say? First again: Thanks a lot for the company! Hopefully see you back in the days in Germany!
I’d better keep it short – so you did, and it is right though!
Probably everything here is also kind of feeling strange because of my arrival back in Singapore after the last trip back to Thailand, to the place I locked up in my heart. Another few people who made my stay so unbelievable…the other way round making me have that feeling right now!
Thank god, I will have another trip there in March!
Cannot imagine going back to Germany, the place where everybody is complaining all day long! It seems so far away, especially in my mind! The decision has to be made in the next few weeks…and I guess you all know what I mean with that!? Every day here, everyday far away from the place I feel myself get stuck in the horror of everyday routine, surely makes it easy to come back again – but then I guess it is forever!